Oops, I Did It Again

Swallow your pride.


Especially when you fucked up. Seriously. I’ve never been the kind of person to apologize, just ask my ex-boyfriends, it wasn’t my best quality. But you know what? I’m working on being better, so as much as I might absolutely not want to admit that I was a jerk and as much as I’d love to just sweep all my wrongdoings under the rug, I’m going to apologize when I’ve messed up. It’s not fun and to be completely honest, I don’t want to do it because I’m a self serving person, but I guess part of growing up and trying to be a decent human being is learning when to apologize and when to ignore the parts of you that tell you, you don’t need to.

From here on out, when I’ve been an ass, I’m going to come to you like a puppy with its tail between its legs; I’m going to ask for forgiveness and truly mean it when I say I’m sorry. I won’t say it begrudgingly. I won’t say it because momma told me to. I won’t even say it because I feel like I have to; I’m going to say it because I want to and because I am truly sorry. I’m going to say it so you can know that I know I was wrong or hurtful.

If you’re the kind of person who doesn’t like to admit when they’re in the wrong, I feel ya. I’m not a fan of being shown the error of my ways, but to err is human and it’s something we will never escape. We’re all just growing bit by bit, so why not accept the fact that sometimes you’re an asshole and sometimes you hurt people? Why not come to terms with the fact that being “right” isn’t the most important thing, especially in an argument when no one is right or wrong, we’re just different.

Let’s go back to kindergarten; when someone did something mean to you, they’d come back and say sorry and we’d all be playing in the sandbox together like best friends, as if nothing had ever happened.

Childhood was so easy in comparison.



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